I'm doing a lot better than I expected.

I know it's only been two days now. But this week has been really good. I've been hanging out with a lot of people this week. Almost everyday have had something to do. Actually, I take that back. Everyday this week I've had something to do. The problem isn't that I need Taylor in my life to function. In fact, right now I'm functioning better than I had been this whole past month. Both of our stress combined brought us down and pushed us away from each other. I'm hoping this bump will be smoothed over soon enough and he will realize that we still have a lot worth fighting for. I feel relieved right now because I don't feel like I'm messing up anything. And I don't know why I found it so hard to be this person this past month. I've been a completely different person since the beginning of March because of so many changes and disappointing people. But I'm learning how to deal with it. I know that if we get back together things need to change. For one, I'd like to change our communication method. We rely heavily on text messaging to communicate on a daily basis. I think a lot of times that is the source of our problems. Things get taken the wrong way through text messages or not expressed in the right ways. I'd like more of a balance of in-person to text communication. Maybe he will agree with this. I'd also like to spend one day with him just him and I. Not everyday like I expected before. I think our problems are really minor compared to a lot of other people's. And I know we can fix them. Just give me another chance, babe. I'll make everything alright.