Sad Saturday

I am a little bit sad today. Perhaps it's because I'm on my time of the month. But in general I am sad. I guess it's because about a week ago, my boyfriend told me something that has kind of just stuck inside of my brain. He told me that after we broke up in June, his mom told him that she thought I was controlling anyway. It really hurt. Mostly because I feel like nobody understood what it was like to be me in the relationship. Nobody understood what I was put through. What I was put through that made me into a monster that everyone hated. Now I'm always going to be concerned that his parents dislike me. His mom thought that I was controlling when it was HER son that was emotionally cheating on me several times. Maybe I was an idiot for staying. But I love him. And I think he's changed. At least I'd like to think so. And I know that if he ever did something like in the past again, I'd have to walk away from this relationship. But it's sad that his mom felt that way about me. It's really sad that a lot of people had a false impression of me because everything was always one sided and my fault. When in reality, I was hurt a lot. I was hurt for so long. And I'm still not completely healed from it all. But I'm working on it. I don't know. Sad Saturday thoughts.