Happy Freakin' Valentines Day

I woke up to a very crabby boyfriend. Ugh. It was just one thing after the other. Stress was taking over his mind and he took it all out on me which was really frustrating. First he got upset that I didn't want to get dressed up to go out to eat at a very non-classy restaurant tonight. I didn't know we were "dressing up" kind of people considering the last two valentine's days we've spend together have been very casual and we didn't make a big deal of it. I got really frustrated by this. It made me think about this past summer while we were broken up and he was seeing three GORGEOUS girls. If he wants a girl to dress up and go out with him, he shouldn't be with me. I'll never be that girl. In fact, I don't want to be that girl. It's great that they all did and that he enjoyed that. But his expectations of me are unrealistic and I don't feel like dressing up for a day that means absolutely nothing to me. Valentine's day=commercialized love and I don't agree with the message it sends. Neither did he, I thought. Also, he bought my present last night for a Swarm game this Saturday even though we talked about the possibility that I might not be able to go due to work schedule conflicts. And he was stressed out that he spent so much money on the ticket and now has no money until Friday. Well good job pal! I can't even commit to this present and you're taking your stress out on me. It has just been a really frustrating morning and I'm ready for a nap.