My Dream

...would be to get really good at a foreign language and travel there and be touring bands' translators. How sick would that be? Just get to go to a different country while touring bands are there and show them around/help them speak to the locals. That would be the best job EVER.

I Can't Even...

Every time I go looking for more info on these girls from the summer, I grow more and more disappointed. Not in their looks or anything like that. Mainly in their music choices and their life choices. Especially for someone with such high morals (straight edge, christian, blahblahblah). First you start seeing a girl who works as a stripper, then some other girl who is kind of okay I guess whatever, then some girl who I want to rip to shreds (by the way) who smokes weed and listens to the shittiest music EVER. It just makes me laugh. Like you went from this to that? I know it doesn't matter now because we are together anyway. But seriously. I'm embarrassed that you even thought you could replace me with any of those girls.

Growing Restless and Careless

I desperately need spring break to get here. Two more weeks away. I can tell that I need this break by the lack of effort and care I'm putting into my classes so far this week. I know there are handfuls of other people that need a break more than I do, but honestly. Spring break can't come any sooner.

Number 1 Reason I Am Voting For Obama over Ron Paul in The 2012 Election:

Ron Paul is a supporter of GOP. Something I am INCREDIBLY against. I agree with a lot of his campaign strategies and all that. And I think he is a really strong candidate. I just can't agree to voting for someone who supports such a terrible organization. As a woman, I need to protect my rights to being able to do what I want with my body and my reproductive choices. I cannot let some strong-headed pro-life organization take away my right to choose what is best for me. Ever.

Stupid Girl Go Away

There is this girl that insists on putting meme's on my boyfriends facebook and it's annoying as all hell. This may be something 12 year olds complain about but I don't care. She's annoying and I want her to go away. That's all.

Sometimes I Wish...

My friends would be happy for me. Friends, more like friend. Just one singular person. My friend. The person who considers themselves to be my "best friend". Not only is she not my best friend anymore, she barely seems like a friend at all. I can't bring my boyfriend around her because she doesn't want to feel like the "third wheel" even though my boyfriend and I aren't into that. She also doesn't want to be around him because she doesn't know the people we hang out with. If you hung out with us, you'd know people. A couple days ago I also found out that I had been considered by two radio stations for an internship this summer that I have to apply for soon here. And she didn't even say anything about it. Not even that she was happy for me. My boyfriend and his friends expressed more happiness for me than my own friends did. That makes me so sad. Maybe I just don't have any real friends anymore at all. Besides my boyfriend and his friends. Ugh.

Also...

I apparently suck at doing food blogs and diet/exercise entries. So that ship has sailed and imma do what I want.

Happy Freakin' Valentines Day

I woke up to a very crabby boyfriend. Ugh. It was just one thing after the other. Stress was taking over his mind and he took it all out on me which was really frustrating. First he got upset that I didn't want to get dressed up to go out to eat at a very non-classy restaurant tonight. I didn't know we were "dressing up" kind of people considering the last two valentine's days we've spend together have been very casual and we didn't make a big deal of it. I got really frustrated by this. It made me think about this past summer while we were broken up and he was seeing three GORGEOUS girls. If he wants a girl to dress up and go out with him, he shouldn't be with me. I'll never be that girl. In fact, I don't want to be that girl. It's great that they all did and that he enjoyed that. But his expectations of me are unrealistic and I don't feel like dressing up for a day that means absolutely nothing to me. Valentine's day=commercialized love and I don't agree with the message it sends. Neither did he, I thought. Also, he bought my present last night for a Swarm game this Saturday even though we talked about the possibility that I might not be able to go due to work schedule conflicts. And he was stressed out that he spent so much money on the ticket and now has no money until Friday. Well good job pal! I can't even commit to this present and you're taking your stress out on me. It has just been a really frustrating morning and I'm ready for a nap.

Second Suggestion

Please write down the notes before coming to class. I wonder what would happen if I stopped bringing my laptop to class. Then you wouldn't be able to lean and breathe over me and be a huge distraction. Might have to try this out after the next exam. That'll teach you! Maybe...

Leave it to my boyfriend...

To be snooping around my room and just so happened to look inside a bag that had his Valentine's Day present inside. Ugh. Boys.

Star Wars!

Crap yeah! Saw that tonight with my dad, brother, and my brothers friend. The 3-d aspect of it wasn't entirely impressive. I don't necessarily like 3-d movies though to begin with. But seeing Star Wars on the big screen; there is honestly nothing else like it. I can't wait for the next 5 Februaries now! Seeing the final three for the FIRST time in theaters is going to be such a mind blowing experience. I can't freakin wait!!!!

Sad Saturday

I am a little bit sad today. Perhaps it's because I'm on my time of the month. But in general I am sad. I guess it's because about a week ago, my boyfriend told me something that has kind of just stuck inside of my brain. He told me that after we broke up in June, his mom told him that she thought I was controlling anyway. It really hurt. Mostly because I feel like nobody understood what it was like to be me in the relationship. Nobody understood what I was put through. What I was put through that made me into a monster that everyone hated. Now I'm always going to be concerned that his parents dislike me. His mom thought that I was controlling when it was HER son that was emotionally cheating on me several times. Maybe I was an idiot for staying. But I love him. And I think he's changed. At least I'd like to think so. And I know that if he ever did something like in the past again, I'd have to walk away from this relationship. But it's sad that his mom felt that way about me. It's really sad that a lot of people had a false impression of me because everything was always one sided and my fault. When in reality, I was hurt a lot. I was hurt for so long. And I'm still not completely healed from it all. But I'm working on it. I don't know. Sad Saturday thoughts.

Going to start blogging about dietary/exercise habits

I feel it will give me a way to see what I'm eating throughout the day as well as how much exercise I am exhibiting in my daily life. Also, it might force me to be more aware of the things I'm eating or not eating (such as nutrients that are vital). Going to start cooking more recipes except just boxed food all of the time too. the Sketch-Vegan Recipes blog sounds like a good place to start! Andddd break.

Breakfast:
1 waffle with butter and syrup
1 clementine

Lunch:
1 serving of rice
1 egg (scrambled)
A bit of soysauce
3 strawberries

Dinner:
Small cheese quesadilla

Snacks:
Small bowl of cookie dough ice cream
Crackers with cheese
Skittles

Going to the movies soonish so I will edit this as my day goes on. I think this will be really good for myself and a good way to make sure I am staying on track health-wise.

German Passion

Today I decided that I'm going to start taking my German class more seriously. This will involve more German reading, listening to more German music, watching German shows, and studying more often in general. Hopefully I can minor in it. All this German rap this morning has made me so ambitious to just get really good at the language now. I want to go back there so badly too. Maybe that's another chunk of this sudden realization that I love the language more than I ever thought I could. German pride!

An Open Letter of Suggestions

Dear person who sits next to me in my mass media class,
I have a couple of suggestions on how we can make this semester as pleasurable as possible. Please take the following into consideration:
1. Please try to not breathe so loudly. You sound like you are on your death bed and/or a monster.
2. Please stop making excuses as to why you can't look up the notes on your own computer on your own time. It's very aggravating that you continually ask me to send you additional notes or ask to finish copying notes from previous lectures.
3. Please stop leaning over me into my personal space to copy down the notes I've taken.
4. Please stop copying notes that I take beyond the notes that we are given. I like to take as much of what the teacher says in as possible and if you weren't paying attention, that's not exactly my problem.
5. Please stop asking me to go to the next slide as I follow the ppt presentation on my laptop. Either learn to sum up what the notes actually say or bring a laptop and type the notes.
6. Please stop using your phone in class. It's very hard to concentrate when there is a beaming light on my left hand side.
All in all, you are a huge distraction and I wish I could just sit somewhere else. But apparently we have developed a "friendship" suggested by the fact that you continue to sit next to me. We need to find some solutions to make this semester a little more enjoyable.

Sincerely,
You're overly annoyed seat neighbor

Blog Challenges and Anonymous Hate Mail

When I used tumblr, I had a blog challenge I was doing. A 365 day blog challenge. I've completed about 60 days of it and considering copying and pasting all of the work I did on there to this. But it might get old. So I may just turn my tumblr challenge blog into a password protected blog that only I can see. The point of me blogging on here instead of tumblr is because I'm tired of all of the drama that goes on and all of the jerks that take it into their own hands to cut people down through posts and anonymous messages. It's ridiculous. The whole concept of anonymous hate mail is so dumb to me. I have never sent out hate mail, nor will I ever. No matter how many times a person chooses to cut me down in that format and however many times I find out that it's them. It's not in my nature to do that. And I'd be ashamed if I ever stooped to that level. This past year I have gained a grand total of 1 enemy. I don't gain enemies very often. In fact, I'd say that this is the first I've ever had. But like so many other people's enemies in social networking formats, mine chose to take me out via anon hate mail. At first I was surprised by it because I thought the person to be somewhat intelligent and mature for their age. But it turned out it was all an illusion. And it just goes to show that ANYONE can have a different motive behind a screen and keyboard. This generation has become the "keyboard warriors" and I'm very sad about that.

I love spending time with my boyfriend

He really makes everything seem so...small. Everything in the world. It's just me and him laughing at silly pictures and saying dumb things. But it makes sense to us. Two and a half years have never been so beautiful as they have been with him.

Well, Here it Goes

My name is Corissa. I used to be a very active tumblr user and now have switched over to blogspot for several reasons. I am a 20 year old college student and trying to move past the high school scrutiny that happens on various social networking sites. I'm hoping this will give me an opportunity to start over and build myself as an adult with a more adult atmosphere of bloggers! That's all for now. Toodles. :)